Tuesday, July 31, 2007

28th July 2007

Just too many things on my mind to write down and don't know where to begin.

This date has significant meaning to me. It represents the first time Princess and I went on a trip; a real trip to Malacca in Malaysia. Finally, after months of waiting, I was able to, with "light bulbs" in toll, go on a short vacation with her. The visit to Malacca was my first and though there wasn't much to do (or rather we didn't really do much), the food and her presence more than made up for it.

We finally had our first night as a couple and in more ways than one. The intimate details shall remain in my heart but lest it be said that they were things that only couples would do. Having her by my side was really a dream come through and words can't do justice to how I felt seeing her lay beside me while she sleeps. Seeing her closed eyes and hearing her light breathing kind of made me pinched myself and wondering over and over again as to what could I have done right to deserve someone as nice as her. All I could do was to kiss her forehead and stroke her hair while she slept.

I really love her and want her to be with me for the rest of my life. Selfishly, I am very sure I will depart this world before her and hopefully, I will be able to thank her for a wonderful life before I leave for good.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Just thoughts.....

I have been ultra sad the last 24 hours. Simply have not felt this way in many a weeks. Yesterday was the very first time that I had a major disagreement with Princess. I must say it's a frustration session regarding something that we cannot reach any agreement upon. Simply I don't have any solution that will both satisfy her of us.....

I wrote a lot more but simply I don't want to make the matter worst than it already is now. It won't help my be blogging abou it............

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

VOEP

It has been close to 2 weeks since my last entry to this blog. Many things have happened, mostly bad and unfortunate but the one true bright spark must really be the presence of Princess. Since May this year, we have become a couple and so far so good I must say. Indeed, this is truly a good spot in my life that is keeping me going right now.

She is indeed a good girl although at times I do find that I must really shower her with lots of TLC to be protective as she can get upset over things I probably would never have thought twice about. Whenever she is "challenged" on something or topic that is against her principles, things can become a little uneasy. Over several incidents (like religion, family, children, relationships) I have learned a lot more about her that I never knew in the past and learned how to handle delicate situations like those. So far so good, I must say.

At times I ask myself whether it is tiring or difficult to maintain a relationship with someone who is so passionate about her views and belief. Indeed, I do admit that I am, at times, hurt by her retorts but strangely I have not actually lost my cool. Maybe I am overly protective of her feelings which is quite incredible I must admit. Or maybe I have finally realised the true meaning of commitment? That commitment is never easy and will always take TLC to sustain? Or maybe it's because I have mellowed and have become more patient?

Nevertheless, bottomline is that Princess means a lot to me and I pray that she remains by my side for many years to come.....

Crossroad?

I think I am coming to a crossroad in my career. Honestly speaking, I am no longer happy working in the company. Maybe it's the management, maybe it's the role, maybe it's the (lack of) people, or maybe it's simply just me but I feel that the motivation to work is waning....

With some many people leaving, I am not sure if the company will survive this exodus of people. Be it talented people or not, these people are carrying with them what (little) knowledge they possess about the operations of the company and unfortunately, I do think that any new hires will find it difficult to fill the gaps. Maybe I am wrong or I hope that I am wrong but I am kind of worried that things will go downhill from this point onwards.

Hopefully, I will be proven wrong and I will recover my zest for the company and my role.

Saturday, July 7, 2007

Saturday

Spending a quiet Saturday with my dear dear at my place. She is actually sitting in front of me right now, studying on the round table that we bought. An ordinary day by other people's standard but a very fulfilling one for me.... Just spending time with my dear VOEP.

I always cherish the weekends that we spend together as we are always very loving. In a way, we always share the intimate moments together which we enjoy and is a very bonding experience for me (and us).

Love her. Just want to tell he that I do still mean it during "those " moments....

God knows

God knows that I love Veron through and through. In whatever that I do, I will put her as my 1st priority.

At times when I trip up and upset her, I will try all my best to make her understand and happy. Really, I'm trying my utmost best but sometimes I just felt so little when I can't make her understand and she continues to be upset with things.

I already promised myself that I will cherish this good girl and I will continue to learn from all mistakes. At times and in return, I hope that she can understand that I am really and already putting her on a pedestal in many a things. I just want her love 24/7 and never be upset......

God knows.....

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Her name is.....

Princess has been seriously dating me for the past 2 months or so and we are now seriously in love. Can't really complain anymore since she is now my girlfriend.... hehe.... shy to say that.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Wealth creation

I really hope to be able to save up more money so that there will not be any worries in the near future when I get together with Princess. Hopefully, the unit trust that I invested in will see steady returns to help my fund grow little by little. Yeah, I am not the high risk taker so probably won't and don't mind seeing growth on the low side.

Just want to make sure that I have a secure job so that I can start a family with her. Hopefully, it will be soon....

Home alone

On medical leave today..... but no one to care for me. Since Princess is not with me, I guess I will have to take care of myself. Kind of sad since I would love my girlfriend to be beside me in times of sickness.

Almost 5 pm now so I need to think of what to do with the rest of the afternoon and evening. Maybe go out for a short walk and get food. Damn hungry. Sigh, wanted to eat steamboat but no one to share it with. I guess maybe just eat hawker food but I want to eat more vegetables..... Steamboat would be good since I can just pick out what I want.

Got to work hard later on. Need to finish my work so that I have more time to prepare for next week's events which can be important. If I do a good job then at least I will have one less thing to worry about in the coming months.

Sigh, I miss having Princess besides me. She is the cure for all my woes........