The year in review.... Part I

This will always be remembered as the year that my life changed, mostly for personal reasons.

Mom passed away after years of fighting against cancer. A relief for her but I must say I realised that there are many things that I should have done but didn't do for her. At times, I will still quietly do things like greeting her goodbye when I leave for work and "talking" to her when I walk past her framed picture. Don't think I am crazy but at times I really wished I have done more for her, especially in terms of material comfort. Really, I wished I had provided her a better and more comfortable home for her to live out the last days. Alas, she really left in a hurry.... As what my dear always tells me, make sure I don't make the same mistakes that I don't want repeated.... Hopefully, I will always keep that in mind.

On the other end of the scale is of course my dear. What to say? Her presence really changed my life. Never would I imagine that I will actually get involved with another girl, let alone someone as young, someone as smart, someone as kind-hearted as her.

True, ever since we got together there most certainly were times when I was worried; worried if I had incurred her wrath, worried if I had made her upset, worried that I didn't do enough to make her happy, worried when will she come out of her "cold" mode etc. Really, there were times that I was waiting for her to throw in the towel and said it is over. In the end, she changed. I definitely can feel that she has changed and became very accommodating because she loves me very much, so much that she is willing to accept my character flaws. All I can say that I am forever grateful and will never abuse her trust in me as promised. I will always be a faithful and loving boyfriend (and future husband) to her. Honestly, I don't think I am as sensitive and attentive as she wants me to be but I must say I have tried and is still trying.....

Just do it....

Home sick...... Have been suffering from diarrhea for the past 3 days now and finally the body looks to be healing.

I just feel so irritated the past several days, not by my illness but rather by the fact that work is never far behind me even when I am sick. I don't like this kind of lifestyle at all. Never in my life would I envision that my adult life would turn out to be one endless loop of work-work-work with short intermissions in between.

Well, just do it.... Just resign.... Just do something different with Princess.... While I may not be the smartest of people and earn the most of money, I most certainly won't go hungry earning a lot less than now. At least I will be leading a much more balanced life and hopefully happier and longer.

Just do it.