Guess tonight is a very good night for me.... Really makes me wonder what sort of life I have been living for the last few months..... Only work and no play?
Listening to my fave HK radio station after so long an absence. So refreshing to just soak myself in the music, in the live talks, in the discussions. Maybe I have been absent for too long, so long that I have forgotten some of the lessons that I have learnt in the past. Life is not supposed to be so bad. I can still make something out of it, can't I?
Money isn't everything. I know that (but for some reason even my baby don't believe me). I just need time. Time to do all the things that I like and love. I would love to do that.....
Next time, I will get my bluetooth headphone and try it out at baby's house.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
My rusty Jap
There is a certain calm in me today. After last night, this is really a very welcomed feeling. Not sure if it has something to do with what I accomplished at work today or just feeling good because I feel Princess's presence with me or just everything. Work still sucks but it sucked in a good way today.
Rusty old Japanese needs some brushing up. Guess it again time to head back to the books. One word at a time, one phrase at a try, one sentence at an attempt..... Little by little.... I still have at least 40 years' to do so.
Or my piano.....
Rusty old Japanese needs some brushing up. Guess it again time to head back to the books. One word at a time, one phrase at a try, one sentence at an attempt..... Little by little.... I still have at least 40 years' to do so.
Or my piano.....
The Rubik's Cube
Finished watching the movie today. I wouldn't say I was totally inspired by it but I guess it does show that every you want in life, you got to earn it through hard work and perseverance. At times, I don't know where or what my motivations in life are but most certainly I am very sure if I had tried harder or had more confidence in myself, I would have achieved much more. Maybe I am on the wrong side of youth but I guess it's never too late to start sometime. Hey, going by the smart alec government's logic, I will have a 1 in 2 chance of living beyond 85. Guess it's still not too late.....
2 minutes blind folded.... Wow, that would impress anyone, including my babe.... Wow! She would probably allow me to make babies with her right away if I can demonstrate that kind of brain powers.... Wow! Must be one of the most amazing feats I have ever seen in my life.
2 minutes blind folded.... Wow, that would impress anyone, including my babe.... Wow! She would probably allow me to make babies with her right away if I can demonstrate that kind of brain powers.... Wow! Must be one of the most amazing feats I have ever seen in my life.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
In pursuit of happiness
What a lousy day..... gotten bullied at work, dead tired, tons of work to do. To top it off, a car almost crashed into me for no reason. Really, I have not felt this low for a long time now. Much worst than any other time this year. Much worst than any other time last year. Much worst than any other time the year before last.
I need my baby to love me right now......
I need my baby to love me right now......
Sunday, October 21, 2007
I miss my baby....
I am still in love after 6 months.... Still very much so. Still very much happy with my choice of life partner.
I know things have not been ultra smooth during the last couple of months but I would really term those as growing up pains than incompatibility. Granted there were moments that I really wondered if I had made the wrong choice (again) but those thoughts didn't last long at all. Everytime I will come up with the same answer.... Yes, I do love this baby of mine....
Ever since I started having dinner and staying over at her place, I think I have gotten much more confident of this relationship so much so that I am be lazy in expressing my affection to her. Yeah, I am probably guilty as charged but frankly I still think of her in those quiet moments of the night or when I watch her sleep beside me. Just my baby beside me....
I miss her.... so far away in Shanghai..... Baby rest well, OK?
I know things have not been ultra smooth during the last couple of months but I would really term those as growing up pains than incompatibility. Granted there were moments that I really wondered if I had made the wrong choice (again) but those thoughts didn't last long at all. Everytime I will come up with the same answer.... Yes, I do love this baby of mine....
Ever since I started having dinner and staying over at her place, I think I have gotten much more confident of this relationship so much so that I am be lazy in expressing my affection to her. Yeah, I am probably guilty as charged but frankly I still think of her in those quiet moments of the night or when I watch her sleep beside me. Just my baby beside me....
I miss her.... so far away in Shanghai..... Baby rest well, OK?
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
The house....
I have said it more than once that I missed my old house..... Even though it was very much dilapidated by the time I moved out of it, I still feel a very deep sense of attachment to it.
It was the house that I practically grew up in. Some great and happy years very early on while the ones after my teenage years were tough with the parents struggling to bring in money. Unfortunately, my stupid dad didn't cherish the 2nd chance bestowed upon him and chose to squander the hard earned money during the 2nd wind in the mid 90s.
I must admit I always chose to run away from the problem during those bad last few years. Just wanting to avoid hearing the bad news in the hope that things will turn out better for a 3rd time. It was never meant to be, I guess and my source of joy and pride was no more.
No one in this world can understand how it felt inside of me when I eventually had to leave the house. I was powerless to do anything because I had stupidly gotten married and more stupidly bought a flat that was too big without studying my finances. If only I had been wiser, I would be able to react much, much better and probably saved the house and also my happiness too.
It was indeed a great pain to see my siblings and mother suffer just because of what my dad did. Till date, I still feel a sense of guilt for not being able to let my mom die in a house that befitted her contribution over the last few decades. Looking at my current situation, I wonder if I will also disappoint my Princess for not being able to provide the best to her.
That's why I miss my old house. It would have been great to move from childhood to teenager to adulthood to fatherhood and so on in the same old house, no matter how delapitated it may be.
It was the house that I practically grew up in. Some great and happy years very early on while the ones after my teenage years were tough with the parents struggling to bring in money. Unfortunately, my stupid dad didn't cherish the 2nd chance bestowed upon him and chose to squander the hard earned money during the 2nd wind in the mid 90s.
I must admit I always chose to run away from the problem during those bad last few years. Just wanting to avoid hearing the bad news in the hope that things will turn out better for a 3rd time. It was never meant to be, I guess and my source of joy and pride was no more.
No one in this world can understand how it felt inside of me when I eventually had to leave the house. I was powerless to do anything because I had stupidly gotten married and more stupidly bought a flat that was too big without studying my finances. If only I had been wiser, I would be able to react much, much better and probably saved the house and also my happiness too.
It was indeed a great pain to see my siblings and mother suffer just because of what my dad did. Till date, I still feel a sense of guilt for not being able to let my mom die in a house that befitted her contribution over the last few decades. Looking at my current situation, I wonder if I will also disappoint my Princess for not being able to provide the best to her.
That's why I miss my old house. It would have been great to move from childhood to teenager to adulthood to fatherhood and so on in the same old house, no matter how delapitated it may be.
A lazy Tuesday
It's been a long while since I am home alone on a weekday evening doing my own stuff and without Princess by my side. Well, I am home (relatively) early at before 9pm and she is away for ballet.
Kind of tired after a long day at the office and just want to relax without stressing myself out with office work. I really think that 13 hours of office work is dedication enough and no one can blame me, including the Gods, for taking a rest at home.
Looking at my blog entries for the last two months show just how much my lifestyle has changed. In the past, no matter what, I would probably be able to find some time to enter a blog every other day or every few days but really that has not happened for a long while now. It is obvious that it's not because I have slacked but because I spend a lot of time with Princess.
Princess..... Oh my Princess. It is fair to say that she has brought me a lot of joy and purpose in recent months along with those little moments of sadness and frustration. I guess it happens in all relationships but at the end of the day, I hope she recognises that I am playing my part in making this relationship work to perfection. Seldom you will find two person who are most willing to just sit home and rot away for a full day without blaming the other party for being boring. Yet, there are times when her sense of insecurity can cause me to be stressed about how to make her happy again. Give and take as I have learned. No one is perfect least of all me so I really try. I can tell that she tries on a lot of occasions too so I don't blame anyone on those little trip ups because I was also guilty. At the end of the day, as long as I feel happy and she continues to show her affection towards me, I am sure this is still the right one for me.
Yeah, I really need to write more into this blog. It is kind of a waste to see it dwindle down to nothing in the long run.
Kind of tired after a long day at the office and just want to relax without stressing myself out with office work. I really think that 13 hours of office work is dedication enough and no one can blame me, including the Gods, for taking a rest at home.
Looking at my blog entries for the last two months show just how much my lifestyle has changed. In the past, no matter what, I would probably be able to find some time to enter a blog every other day or every few days but really that has not happened for a long while now. It is obvious that it's not because I have slacked but because I spend a lot of time with Princess.
Princess..... Oh my Princess. It is fair to say that she has brought me a lot of joy and purpose in recent months along with those little moments of sadness and frustration. I guess it happens in all relationships but at the end of the day, I hope she recognises that I am playing my part in making this relationship work to perfection. Seldom you will find two person who are most willing to just sit home and rot away for a full day without blaming the other party for being boring. Yet, there are times when her sense of insecurity can cause me to be stressed about how to make her happy again. Give and take as I have learned. No one is perfect least of all me so I really try. I can tell that she tries on a lot of occasions too so I don't blame anyone on those little trip ups because I was also guilty. At the end of the day, as long as I feel happy and she continues to show her affection towards me, I am sure this is still the right one for me.
Yeah, I really need to write more into this blog. It is kind of a waste to see it dwindle down to nothing in the long run.
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