Disappointing end to the day....

Still thinking back to what my dear said to me just now. Was I putting her down? From her explanation, I can see her point although I have zero intention of doing so. Saying that she couldn't do a back massage as good as the masseur was merely my way of politely saying the masseur is good or better than both of us. If the roles were reverse and she said the same thing to the masseur I wouldn't think much of it because it is true.

Thinking more into it, I kind of wonder if the feeling is like what I felt in the afternoon when she laughed at my mis-pronounciation. Even though she didn't mean it as she said, I felt bad and was feeling that she was laughing at my incompetence on both occasions. In this case, would I be wrong if I had assumed that she was putting me down? Honestly, that has happened on other occasions and nowadays I have become sensitive about using multi-syllabus words so much so that I have lost that bit of confidence. Maybe I am too insensitive? Maybe. Maybe she was too sensitive this afternoon? Again, maybe. Well, I guess looking for an answer would probably lead to an endless argument.

Honestly, I just feel that my dear is rather temperamental at me nowadays. Like what I told her, she tends to make her own conclusion about certain situations even though I never meant it that way. As a result, she would become upset or at least very recluse although she wouldn't agree with me, I guess.... Maybe I am not as attentive as before and most certainly have room for improvement but I just feel that the number of occasions whereby I was being "snapped at" or "cynically rebutted" has gone up. Honestly, it was not a good feeling to have inside of me but at times I just bottle it up because I don't want to make the situation more worst than it was. I am not trying to make myself look like a hero because I am not. In those situations, I really do try to "de-fuse" the tension by explaining myself but it doesn't work 100% of the time. Well, as I have learned, relationships will always be a case of give and take.

Just a disappointing end to the day as I said..... Just feeling low and lousy that the day turned out this way in the end....