Monday, May 19, 2008
Dumpling festival
Soon, the Dumpling festival will arrive again. The 1st year where mom is not around to celebrate with us. Life is just that bit different without a family.....
Disappointing end to the day....
Still thinking back to what my dear said to me just now. Was I putting her down? From her explanation, I can see her point although I have zero intention of doing so. Saying that she couldn't do a back massage as good as the masseur was merely my way of politely saying the masseur is good or better than both of us. If the roles were reverse and she said the same thing to the masseur I wouldn't think much of it because it is true.
Thinking more into it, I kind of wonder if the feeling is like what I felt in the afternoon when she laughed at my mis-pronounciation. Even though she didn't mean it as she said, I felt bad and was feeling that she was laughing at my incompetence on both occasions. In this case, would I be wrong if I had assumed that she was putting me down? Honestly, that has happened on other occasions and nowadays I have become sensitive about using multi-syllabus words so much so that I have lost that bit of confidence. Maybe I am too insensitive? Maybe. Maybe she was too sensitive this afternoon? Again, maybe. Well, I guess looking for an answer would probably lead to an endless argument.
Honestly, I just feel that my dear is rather temperamental at me nowadays. Like what I told her, she tends to make her own conclusion about certain situations even though I never meant it that way. As a result, she would become upset or at least very recluse although she wouldn't agree with me, I guess.... Maybe I am not as attentive as before and most certainly have room for improvement but I just feel that the number of occasions whereby I was being "snapped at" or "cynically rebutted" has gone up. Honestly, it was not a good feeling to have inside of me but at times I just bottle it up because I don't want to make the situation more worst than it was. I am not trying to make myself look like a hero because I am not. In those situations, I really do try to "de-fuse" the tension by explaining myself but it doesn't work 100% of the time. Well, as I have learned, relationships will always be a case of give and take.
Just a disappointing end to the day as I said..... Just feeling low and lousy that the day turned out this way in the end....
Thinking more into it, I kind of wonder if the feeling is like what I felt in the afternoon when she laughed at my mis-pronounciation. Even though she didn't mean it as she said, I felt bad and was feeling that she was laughing at my incompetence on both occasions. In this case, would I be wrong if I had assumed that she was putting me down? Honestly, that has happened on other occasions and nowadays I have become sensitive about using multi-syllabus words so much so that I have lost that bit of confidence. Maybe I am too insensitive? Maybe. Maybe she was too sensitive this afternoon? Again, maybe. Well, I guess looking for an answer would probably lead to an endless argument.
Honestly, I just feel that my dear is rather temperamental at me nowadays. Like what I told her, she tends to make her own conclusion about certain situations even though I never meant it that way. As a result, she would become upset or at least very recluse although she wouldn't agree with me, I guess.... Maybe I am not as attentive as before and most certainly have room for improvement but I just feel that the number of occasions whereby I was being "snapped at" or "cynically rebutted" has gone up. Honestly, it was not a good feeling to have inside of me but at times I just bottle it up because I don't want to make the situation more worst than it was. I am not trying to make myself look like a hero because I am not. In those situations, I really do try to "de-fuse" the tension by explaining myself but it doesn't work 100% of the time. Well, as I have learned, relationships will always be a case of give and take.
Just a disappointing end to the day as I said..... Just feeling low and lousy that the day turned out this way in the end....
Delayed posting
My goodness, how time flies..... My last blog was actually from more than 1 month ago?! Gosh....
My dear said that I actually have someone leaving a comment on my blog.... Again, incredulous for the simple fact that I never knew people would actually read (not even like) what I blog about. Ha.... really surprised to say the least. To whomever who left a comment, thanks...
Just returned back home after a few days' break in Taiwan. Got to admit that place grows on me. It is not really that cosmopolitan a city like what I imagined it to be; in fact, most of the buildings look kind of dated. However, after being there in Taipei twice in the last 6 months, I must say I really like the charm and character of the city. Everytime I walk past a shop or building where the decor is circa 1980s or 1990s, I would be imagining how things were for the tenants back then and how they are doing now 20 or 30 years later. I love the rustic feel of the place but I honestly hope that it's not because they are too economically challenged to do up the buildings/houses but rather just happy to leave things the way they are.
I do have to selfishly say I hope they keep it that way because it reminds me of Singapore from the same era. In Singapore, anything establishment more than X number of years will be torn down or refurbished so much so that it is really a "modern" city.... no places to look back and reminiscent what it was like back then. True, the areas here like Joo Chiat, Katong, Tanjong Katong, and Kallang are so much changed from before that I totally forgot some of the landmarks from before. Damn.... looking to the past again.
My dear said that I actually have someone leaving a comment on my blog.... Again, incredulous for the simple fact that I never knew people would actually read (not even like) what I blog about. Ha.... really surprised to say the least. To whomever who left a comment, thanks...
Just returned back home after a few days' break in Taiwan. Got to admit that place grows on me. It is not really that cosmopolitan a city like what I imagined it to be; in fact, most of the buildings look kind of dated. However, after being there in Taipei twice in the last 6 months, I must say I really like the charm and character of the city. Everytime I walk past a shop or building where the decor is circa 1980s or 1990s, I would be imagining how things were for the tenants back then and how they are doing now 20 or 30 years later. I love the rustic feel of the place but I honestly hope that it's not because they are too economically challenged to do up the buildings/houses but rather just happy to leave things the way they are.
I do have to selfishly say I hope they keep it that way because it reminds me of Singapore from the same era. In Singapore, anything establishment more than X number of years will be torn down or refurbished so much so that it is really a "modern" city.... no places to look back and reminiscent what it was like back then. True, the areas here like Joo Chiat, Katong, Tanjong Katong, and Kallang are so much changed from before that I totally forgot some of the landmarks from before. Damn.... looking to the past again.
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