District 15

District 15 is where I grew up and District 15 is where I want to stay on. Property prices are so high nowadays that I am really worried that I can't afford any type of housing in this vicinity. I guess I have to save more to buy something within my budget although I really hope that my dear will support in whatever way possible too. Two incomes are better than one.

Really hate it for not taking charge of my last property purchase so this time around I will do it based on informed choice. Even if I have to buy a place other than District 15, I will make sure it is value for money.

Down with the fu....

The last week was kind of eventful for me, health-wise. I was playing basketball (for the 1st time) with my colleagues when I severely sprained my ankle. It was a blur how that happened; just remembered I was up against a colleague when he spun away from me and I followed. Unfortunately, my track shoe was firmly planted on the cement ground while my ankle twisted with a crack sound. Well, the sprained flared up quickly and by late evening I had developed a swelling that was worrying. I went to my friend's clinic the same evening and was advised to get a X-ray on it the next day.

The X-ray was done and was just a severe sprain. Too bad it happened on Thursday evening else I would have been given at least 3 days of medical leave. All the pain for nothing... Damn.

Anyway, I kind of developed a flu over the weekend and felt weak today so I visited the company doctor who in turned issued me a day's medical leave. Well, as I said, a rather eventful week which caused me a lot of physical pain and discomfort. Hopefully, things will look up (and way up) for the rest of the year.

Disappearing $ again.....

Really hate it.... Losing money from my investment again.... Simply no luck whatsoever in my pathetic life. Did I use up all my good luck in my earlier years or what to keep seeing my money disappear into thin air?!

Don't know how long it will take for me to recover from this latest setback. If I had known, might as well spent the cash on something tangible. Now as it is, I saved and scrimped but ended up having nothing but heartaches and headaches...... Just in a blink of an eye it was gone.

When I don't do anything, things are always good but immediately once I try to do so, the non-Midas touch comes into play. Sigh.... why is my luck so poor?

Disappearing deposits

Well, confirmed my short term luck sucks like hell. Wanted to grow my money nest instead of letting inflation par it down month by month. Well, didn't work out as intended.... In fact, not at all. Damn, ever since I tried my hand at investment again, I have ended up losing more that I put in ever though I have been taking a very conservative approach. Just what is in my stars that I have to endure setbacks in both work and private lives?

Beats me......

Down this worrisome road

In life there are definitely ups and downs and it really depends on yourself to see it as a crisis or opportunity to learn and improve. In recent one to two years, I noticed a distinct lack of motivation towards my worklife and indirectly, it has affected my outlook towards life itself.

Why am I so unmotivated? Maybe I am sick and tired of the endless work and the ever increasing demand from management. After 10 years in my job in the same line of work, I am slowing but surely getting tired of it. I hate to be in a rat race but can I afford not to be in one? Looking at how high cost of living has become, I shudder to think what would happen if I don't continue to build up a money nest. Not to lead a life of luxury but enough to buy a house and for rainy days. As a result, I need to continue working. Without work, I don't have money and without money, I can't ease my worries. A vicious cycle.....

I just feel I am sandwiched between lack of time and money. I am not young anymore and I need to make sure I can save enough for housing, marriage, family, kids and their education etc. Compared to others in their 30s who have already achieved or doing most of the said, my savings is basically peanuts..... Honestly, once those come into the picture, everything I have will be wiped out leaving me without close to nothing. I am not saving for myself anymore, it's for at least 3 more people. All said, how can I afford to quit my job no matter how much I hate it?

Am I looking too far ahead with my worries? Don't know but at times I just wish that I am not misunderstood about my intentions. If I have some assets, be it inherited or from compounded earnings, I would be less worried and at least I will have more confidence towards life. Shallow in thinking or just plain lack of confidence in one self? I don't know.......

Sigh.... all these worries are just making me lose my hair ever so quickly.

Determination to fulfill this.....

Japanese proficiency..... Probably insignificant to 99.99999% of people out there but I just want to prove to myself and show people that I can do it. I want people to acknowledge that I am actually effectively tri-lingual....

Impossible? Hopefully not.....

本当に日本語の勉強するのは私の興味です。日本人のようにペらペら話すできるになりたいです。私の希望です。無理ですか。もう一度学生になるのは出来ますか。日本へ日本語の勉強するのは欲しいです。しかしもう無理です。。。。 年齢のはもう年寄りですね。残念ですね。自分で一所懸命勉強してもいいよ。。。。今私の日本語の程度はどうですか。まだ下手ですか。だれかが教えてくざさいませんか。

Discovering myself

I was feeling sad just now and googled for "feeling sad".... Up came my blog! Guess it is official now, I am probably the #1 sad-feeling person on the face of this planet....

Yes, I am probably so much a nut-case that anyone who can decipher why I am always so depressed can win himself a Noble prize. Or maybe my Princess will finally be able to do that?